Tag: anger
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My Childhood Part 1
( My first Blog post, October 6, 2011) In effort to bring awareness to my podcast, The Trigger Happy Workbook Podcast, I will be posting the beginning of my online journey sharing my story. I started blogging out of a need to spill out what I was processing and not feel alone. I wanted to…
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The Wrong Reflection
If people aren’t like you What are they like? If I’m not like you What am I like? people can see me Can’t they? I should ask them “What am I like?” I need to hear flatteries Saying nothing about me is just as bad as Shame triggering poisonous attacks makes me try harder to…
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Intimidation is a Trick, a Scandal, and a Lie
My abuser used intimidation to make me feel like I wasn’t free. It (the feeling of being intimidated) makes me turn away from approaching certain areas of myself inside my body. I feel a since of fight or flight whenever I feel like being happy, enjoying my day, being pretty, singing a song, being spontaneous,…
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People Pleasing and the Rearing of Pre – eminent Death (Mars in the 12th house Transit)
Last night I was up making psychic life decisions (that is usual as of late). Come to find out Mars is transiting my Mars placement in the 12th house, so, I haven’t really been able to do anything but meditate and rash out what is really important to me psychically. Questions that have come to mind…
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Rant #2
I will never call you mother again. I spend most of my thought process thinking of you and why, and why, why would you, how could you, there is no way possible that someone could know what they were doing and kill a child’s spirit, courage, and will to live. Yes there is, you are…
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You Can’t Manipulate Life to get what you Want
Growing up I was taught by watching my parents that how you manifest what you want is by trying to manipulate life. Boy did they scheme, get rich quick plans, ice cream trucks, moving and shaking here and there, promotions at work and they were miserable. My step – father would talk about his dreams…
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