Tag: fucked up childhood

• My Childhood Part 1

  ( My first Blog post, October 6, 2011) In effort to bring awareness to my podcast, The Trigger Happy Workbook Podcast, I will be posting the beginning of my online journey sharing my story. I started blogging out of a need to spill out what I was processing and not feel alone. I wanted to…

  Aya

  January 28, 2022

  My Childhood, Uncategorized

  anger, Artist, awakening, beating, child abuse, Daughter of Narcissistic Mother, Evil, fucked up childhood, hatred towards parents, hell, horrible parents, narcissistic mother, pedophile step – dad, ritual abuse, sex addict parents

• Intimidation is a Trick, a Scandal, and a Lie

  My abuser used intimidation to make me feel like I wasn’t free.  It (the feeling of being intimidated) makes me turn away from approaching certain areas of myself inside my body. I feel a since of fight or flight whenever I feel like being happy, enjoying my day, being pretty, singing a song, being spontaneous,…

  Aya

  November 2, 2011

  My Childhood, Rants, Uncategorized

  Alone, anger, Artist, awakening, Bad Mother, beating, Being the oldest, change, child abuse, courage to find yourself, Daughter of Narcissistic Mother, Evil, Evil Parents, feeling like nobody cares, fucked up childhood, gaining love for yourself, Growing up, hatred towards parents, healing process, Hope, HSP’s, Individuation, inner space, Intimidation, sovereignty

• People Pleasing and the Rearing of Pre – eminent Death (Mars in the 12th house Transit)

  Last night I was up making psychic life decisions (that is usual as of late). Come to find out Mars is transiting my Mars placement in the 12th house, so, I haven’t really been able to do anything but meditate and rash out what is really important to me psychically. Questions that have come to mind…

  Aya

  November 2, 2011

  How to Heal, My Childhood, Uncategorized

  Alone, anger, Artist, astrology, awakening, Bad Mother, beating, Being the oldest, child abuse, courage to find yourself, Daughter of Narcissistic Mother, Death of false self, Evil, Evil Parents, fucked up childhood, gaining love for yourself, Growing up, Hope, HSP’s, Individuation, Isolation, Mars in the 12th house, PTSD, Standing up for yourself

• Rant #2

  I will never call you mother again. I spend most of my thought process thinking of you and why, and why, why would you, how could you, there is no way possible that someone could know what they were doing and kill a child’s spirit, courage, and will to live. Yes there is, you are…

  Aya

  October 31, 2011

  My Childhood, Rants

  Alone, anger, Artist, awakening, Bad Mother, beating, Being the oldest, child abuse, courage to find yourself, Daughter of Narcissistic Mother, Evil, Evil Parents, feeling like nobody cares, fucked up childhood, gaining love for yourself, healing process, HSP’s, Individuation, loss, narcissistic mother, PTSD, Standing up for yourself, trauma